We all face the same kind of problem at some point. Many problems are similar to those you or others have had. We can help eachother out, give eachother words of comfort and encouragement. We can point eachother in the right direction and tell ourselves that   there will be light   at the end of the tunnel we´re walking. Somehow, though, however close you´re standing to those who love and support you, in how tight a knot you can curl yourself into, sheilding those who are, at the same time, sheilding you from all bad and the dark, somehow you have to, all on your own keep your head up above the surface and keep breathing.
Even if you know that others feel exactly what you are feeling, you can´t help but feel the most sorriest for yourself. You realise that you might not be alone in the situation, but despite that you feel lonely and you feel as though you have it worst.
At the same time you understand that is not true, of course, but nevertheless, it´s all hard.
And it should be. I know way too many people who have just decided to give up, not to fight. And I realise I wouldn´t want it any other way for myself, I don´t know what I would do with myself if I didn´t have something to fight for, or fight with for that matter. 

But what do you do when you´ve been pushed off the edge of the cliff, fallen down in the ice cold water, miles below even ground? When you´ve fallen flat on you stomach, a fall that knocked all the breath right ot of you and you´re sinking fast and stedily? When you´re right at the point where you trying to catch your breath again but only get wather down you airpipes? Keep swimming!
Then you feel your shoe get stuck in something at the bottom and it´s dragging you down further, what do you do? Lose the bloody shoe! Kick it off and swim up again so that you can breath. Don´t go looking for it, don´t try to put it on again, be contempt and know that you released it for a reason! It´s not woth keeping your shoe on if you can no longer walk in it. 

"It´s like asking someone to run a race while holding their breath" as my friend so rightly put it today. 
We will all keep running, even if we would rather turn around and run in the opposite direction. We shall reach our goal, smiling like the bright and shiny people we truly are! Our fire has not been put out and nor will my hopes for the future! 
My advice to you all this evening, is the following; Choose your battles and play to your own strengths. Do your best and be proud for doing so, no matter the outcome.

Have a pleasant evening!