These past three days has been a nightmare. Have had a fever I honestly thought would kill me and also I got hit by a bad case of tonsillatis (halsfluss). I didn´t eat a thing all day yesterday, I couldn´t, my throat was so soar. My tonsils are red and have gross white spots on them... Right now I´m sitting with some home made hummus, the first thing I´ve eaten all day. It has calmed down a bit I think, I can swallow without flinching with pain now. And my fever´s gone, I just feel drained of all energy. I tried to study a bit today but I didn´t get very far, no energy to concentrate. But it feels now like I´m getting some back, I´ll probably have to spend all of tomorrow studying...

Right now my parents have guests over witch means I´m bound from the bottom floor. Have to stay up here all night. So I´ve loaded up with some nice films and I´ll get some food delivered up haha! Sounds pretty nice if it weren´t for the fact that I´ve spent all my time up here the last few days and I´m currently missing a party...

Feels so typical me! I´m always sick! Why is that, I don´t get it!!?

It´s such a bad timing too, I have loads of things to do for school that I had planned to do thursday and today, but there was no way I could have done anything thursday or friday when I could hardly stand and today didn´t go very well either...

And also, we are supposed to have our song test on wednesday and it´s really important that I´m there but what if I can´t sing by then? I mean my throat hurst just by talking and swallowing, no way I could sing in this state...

But in all this misery I can´t help but to smile everytime I look outside. Our grass is all green and the trees have green buds and all the flowers everywhere! And the sun! It´s so warm, I almost burned my face when I took a few minutes and sat outside. I love that. It all came so quickly.

So I´m thinking that maybe it´s worth waking up tomorrow just to get to witness the wonders outside, just to see if the grass has become a little bit greener or if more trees has got more buds on them or to see my dog trying, without success, to catch a butterfly. That´s what´s making me smile now!